Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Sitting, Drinking, Smiling

I'm sitting here listening to my LAUNCHcast and the boys' door opens and I hear little footsteps. I look up and I see a smiley lil' boy.

Me: "What are you so smiley about?"
Lil' Boy: "You!"
Me: "You're so smiley because of me?"
Lil' Boy: "Yep, because I love you!"

What a good morning, already. Let's keep it up!


so, me is gettin ready to leave fa dis trip up norf. me is fit excited to check everyone but da worst part is dat i ave to drive da 14 ours up there. me is currently in trainin fa early wakin on friday. wakin up early sucks but somebody's gotta do it.

today me is goin to natta dig ali g. it's wicked, borrow it a try.

Monday, October 17, 2005

Annual Changing of the Closets is Under Way

And, it's giving me a headache from h-e-double-hockey-sticks! Seriously, it's such a task but once it's done, it's done. I already have a bin full of old clothes that need to get given away (I'm going to donate them to a hurricane relief charity).

The worst part of this is that I have to wash all of the clothes and then pack them for our upcoming trip to NY. I think I might just forget our clothes and then my mom can take us on a shopping spree. Then I won't have to worry about packing or anything.

Saturday, October 15, 2005

I'm Sick and Tired of Being FAT!

I just feel fat and blah lately. I know that it's a direct result of the food choices *I* have made in recent weeks but it's still sickening. Why do I have to be one of these predisposed people that gains weight easily? Why do I have to work at this so hard and why do I feel like such a failure? I lost a total of 70lbs by April 2004 and since then 30lbs of it have crept back on. :::PUKE:::
I need to:

1) get back to regular exercise (walking, karate, pilates and yoga)
2) eat better
3) drink more water &
4) take my vitamins, daily

By NEW YEAR I would like to have dropped, at least, 20lbs. It's TOTALLY do-able! Now I just gotta fucking do it.

Friday, October 14, 2005

It's About Damn Time

I went to Walmart today and actually bought some vacuum bags. This meant that I, indeed, HAD to vacuum. So, after many weeks of dog hair accumulating and dust collecting, I vacuumed. I did the corners, the couches, the fans, the you-name-it.

Now I have to mop and clean the toilets, tomorrow, and I'll be all set.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005


An old man aged 98
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's the black fly in your Chardonnay
It's the death row pardon 2 minutes too late
Isn't it ironic
Don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just can't take
And who would have thought
It figures

Mr Play-It-Safe was afraid to fly
Packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take this flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought 'Well isn't this nice'
And isn't it ironic
Don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just can't take
And who would have thought
It figures

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's ok
And everything's going alright
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong

And everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like 10,000 spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams and the meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic
Don't you think
A little too ironic
And yeah I really do think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just can't take
And who would have thought
It figures

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny funny way of helping you out
Helping you out

Dear Coffee,

Thank you for warming my hand. Thank you for making me feel nice and warm. And, thank you for waking me up.

I know that for many years I neglected you. I turned to cold bubbly caffeine drinks with massive sugar. That was wrong! To think of all the time I wasted ordering double-doubles and mochas from Timmy's. To think of all the sugar packets I added to my cup at Perkins. To think of all the mornings & nights I spent drowning myself in Coke and Pepsi. Oh, how I did you wrong.

Now, I know better. No longer do I mask your ambrosial flavor. No longer do I seek to defy your very existance. And someday I will seek to pay respect and homage to you in the ownership of my very own shop dedicated to your greatness.

Your Dedicated Consumer,

Monday, October 10, 2005

Written by Dr. Bob Moorehead

The paradox of our time in history is that we have
taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider
freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more,
but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have
bigger houses and smaller families, more
conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees
but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment,
more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but
less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too
recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get
too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read
too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our
values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate
too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life.
We've added years to life not life to years. We've
been all the way to the moon and back, but have
trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor.
We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've
done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.
We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We
write more, but learn less. We plan more, but
accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to
wait. We build more computers to hold more
information, to produce more copies than ever, but
we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow
digestion, big men and small character, steep
profits and shallow relationships. These are the
days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier
houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick
trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one
night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do
everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a
time when there is much in the showroom window and
nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can
bring this letter to you, and a time when you can
choose either to share this insight, or to just hit

Remember, spend some time with your loved ones,
because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to
you in awe, because that little person soon will
grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you,
because that is the only treasure you can give with
your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, "I love you" to your partner and
your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and
an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep
inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for
someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak, and give time
to share the precious thoughts in your mind.


Life is not measured by the number of breaths we
take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Desperate Need

This house needs a total and complete cleaning. I have never let the condition of the house get to this point. This is beyond ''weekend house''.

My kitchen needs mopping.
The carpet needs vacuuming.
The mantel, tv stands and window sills need dusting.
The bathrooms need detoxification.
3 bushels of laundry need to be sorted and put up.
Fall clothes need to replace summer clothes.

And, yet, I have no gumption. No will. No desire. Nothing. But, dammit, we have cake!!

Curve Ball

It's amazing how one day you could think to yourself that you are done with something and then the next day you realize that you aren't done and you want to pursue it some more. Life. Is. Crazy.

It's quite crazy how life throws you a curve ball and when you catch it and throw it back your mind has changed. Sometimes the ball's not a ball at all, it's a water balloon, and it explodes in your hands and all you're left with a wet face. And, no matter how much you try to dry it, it's still dripping.

Vie Est Fou!

FOU, je se dire!

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Mama's Mission

Go to Blockbuster.
Rent movies.
Come home and pop massive amounts of popcorn.
Melt butter.
Mix popcorn, butter and salt.

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Not a Good Week

I request a do-over. I'm just really tired, cranky, painful and upset. I just really want to rewind or TiVo past it.

However, the kids are my lifeline in this misery. They make me laugh, smile and help me forget the shit week I've been having. For instance, Olivia continually shows me that she is a giving, nurturing and bright spirit. The day before yesterday she spent a lot of her time making various drawings. She collected them all in a brown paper bag and vowed to give her artwork out to people she met in our everyday travels. I mustered through my pain, yesterday, and took Mikey to Karate and Olivia decided that since there were many parents at the dojo that she would hand out her art there. She was so intensely sweet doing it that it just made me realize what a blessing God gave us, in her.

So, yes, I'm not having a good week. But, at least I have three happy little pills running around the house to make me feel better.

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Child Predators

They are SICK TWISTED FUCKERS. My God, this makes me so mad.

I'm watching Oprah about this and it's very scary.

I Feel Shitty

I feel shitty,
Oh, so shitty,
I feel shitty and cruddy and not right!
And I pity
The girl who is me tonight.

I feel disgusting,
Oh, so disgusting
It's alarming how disgusting I feel!
And so icky
That I hardly can believe I'm real.

See the gloomy girl in that mirror there:
Who can that cheerless girl be?
Such a sad face,
Such a wrinkled dress,
Such a melancholy smile,
Such a shitty me!

I feel somber
And weepy,
Feel like running and dancing away....

Saturday, October 01, 2005

Change is Good

Who said this, anyway?

Well, hopefully they were right. Actually, so far, all the changes I have gone through have been good and led by God. I hope and pray that any and all changes continue to be so.