Saturday, September 03, 2005

Uncertainty

I cannot even wrap my mind around the turn of events down in LA. So many people have lost their homes and it's just unimaginable. Many more have lost more than that. It's so turbulant. I have the childish thought of "can't I just go to sleep, wake up and it will be over" and then I remember that slumber will not make all of this a nightmare; it indeed happened.

I've caught myself shaking my head a lot lately. A good portion New Orleans is gone. Who knows if it will ever be able to be re-established. Uncertainty abounds and it's quite frightening to me. I just think that something like this can happen anytime. It doesn't have to be a natural disaster but shit like this can happen to anyone, anywhere. Quite honestly, it scares the fucking happiness out of me.

Then on the other side of the coin I have these three wonderful extensions of life around me. I have a man whom with one look let's me know that I am so important to him and loved immensely. I have parents, with their worrying thoughts and all, that care enough to give all that we need when we need it and love unconditionally. I have friends that bring joy to my life as opposed to toxicity. I have my mind. I have my body. I have my soul. I have everything I need to bring happiness back in. And, still, I shake my head and worry.

I need to stay grounded with the SFU lesson:

LIVE FOR TODAY, KEEP HOPE ALIVE, TAKE CHANCES, LOVE ALWAYS and CHERISH YOUR LIFE AND THE LIVES OF THOSE YOU LOVE.

2 comments:

Anne said...

I've been thinking about New Orleans too. I feel for those people and feel so helpless to help them. It makes really appreciate the blessing I have. If you don't consider my daughter who keeps asking when are you getting off the computer... NEVER.. ugh anyway its to easy to take things for granted. But hopefully they will rebuild and something positive will come from the wreakage.

M i s h e l l e said...

I have to believe that something positive will come out of this. It has to -just has to!